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Miracle Minded Momma: Is It OK to be Enough?

Is it OK to be Enough by Emma Van Riper

What does it mean to BE enough? The idea of enoughness was brought to my attention about a year ago and has made me reevaluate how I look at myself and others. It has been long and strange struggle to figure out what being enough even means. What would that look like? Would I just come off as conceited or self important??

Defining Enough

The dictionary defines enough as “as much or as many as required.” How does this idea apply to a person? A regular person with quirks, flaws and one who has made countless mistakes. With technology at our fingertips we are constantly bombarded with images sending us messages that we are incomplete until we have the relationship, the job, the money, the perfect body, the baby, etc… the list goes on and on. It seems like there’s always more to do, more to achieve, more to become. Of course we want to grow, learn, and to become the best versions of ourselves. But how can we find the balance in striving for personal goals and putting down the measuring stick to see how we measure up in the world?

I would like to try my best at something and not care if it’s Pintrest or #goalcrushing worthy. I know it sounds silly but those are the measurements that come into my mind. Is this picture Facebook worthy or was meal more of a Pintrest fail. Did I do enough in all my roles today? Was I the very best mother, wife, daughter, and friend. Most of the time it’s no, and I feel like crap about it. Insert social media and see how much everyone else seemed to conquer life and I feel even worse. But that can’t be their real life every single day, right? I mean, they are humans too with flaws, quirks and lazy moments too, right?!

Measuring Up

Measuring UpI know this logically but it still gets under my skin on those days when I feel like I just will never measure up. But the bigger question is measure up to what? As I dived further into this topic it became clear that I needed to define what being enough meant to me personally and find a way to burn the stupid measuring stick. There wasn’t a mantra or a quick fix that I could apply that worked for any amount of time, I tried. One of the most influential leaders of our time on this topic is Dr. Brené Brown, I highly recommend checking out her work. She talks about how there are no prerequisites to worthiness.

A light bulb went off. For me to feel enough I had to accept that I was worthy of being enough. That I could own all my flaws and still show up to the arena. That I could honor lazy days and not be riddled with guilt. perfect is not the goal. Showing up and meeting yourself where you are at, each and every single day is.

Self Care

Enoughness is a hard topic to talk about and an even trickier dance to live. How does this practice fit in real life full of different roles and pressures. For me it comes down to self care, cliche I know, but its true. When I practice owning my own worthiness I can take the time and resources necessary to take care of my self. I take care of myself not in any of the roles I have and love but to nourish my own being. The more I can prioritize my self care, the more the feelings of not measuring up lessen. Personally I turn to my yoga practice during those times when I prioritize my self care. I simply care less about where I stand in comparison.

Make TimeBy committing to take my needs seriously I am able nourish my soul in a way that also helps me learn how to support others around me. Finding the courage to help myself also helps me show up to my life with more compassion and empathy. When I have more compassion and empathy, I can better support my family and friends in meeting their needs because I am full rather than depleted. Taking your individual needs seriously is a practice that takes commitment as its always ongoing; life often throws curve balls in the way, and old negative patterns come up regularly. Despite the obstacles, it is a path I am committed to for myself and so that my family knows they too are enough. “You are imperfect, you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging.” ― Brené Brown

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Emma Van RiperEmma Van Riper is a certified yoga teacher with a passion for a more peaceful life. She loves living a healthy active life style while navigating the waters of a busy family life.  Creating a more centered and joyful life to bring to her family and the world. Follow her blog here!

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Mental Health

Pan’s Labyrinth: Astar’s Maze II

The Physical Aspect of Mental Health by Pan Bourcier Hidalgo

Part 2 in the Mental Health 4 part series: Astar’s Maze

This is the second video in the four part series concerning mental health. These videos are a compilation of what I have learned over the years in my personal experience and from books I have read. I am not a doctor, I am not a psychologist, and I am not a professional that can offer professional advice. I am simply offering knowledge from my experiences so that some of you will have more clarity in your own experiences and achieve health faster than it has taken me.

I am not at peak health and I don’t think anyone is, but I have come to expect certain things from myself and been able to design my life so that I can flow better with myself. Physical activity is key along with a healthy diet that supports gut health. There is not a diet that will be right for everyone and there is also not a specific exercise routine that is right for everyone. You just have to find what works for you and flow with it.

These videos provide a reference for the different aspects and how they all tie into one another. I will continue creating videos as I conduct more research and learn more about physics in relation to mental health as this is the bulk of what I study. The next video will be about the emotional aspect of mental health and harmonizing with one’s emotions. See you there!
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Pan Burcier-HidalgoPan Bourcier Hidalgo is a Dancer who is originally from Albuquerque, New Mexico. Her blog series, Pan’s Labyrinth, discusses Self-Discovery and Personal Evolution.

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Pan’s Labyrinth: Astar’s Maze I

The Mental Aspect of Mental Health by Pan Bourcier Hidalgo

Part 1 in the Mental Health 4 part series: Astar’s Maze

Ever since I can remember I felt that I wanted to help people and I knew I would change the world in some way. This is still not something that is clear to me. However, I do have my story to offer and I do have insights to offer in my journey up to this point. I do not have everything figured out but I would like to share my story and share my theories in the hope that at least one person feels less alone in their struggles.

Over the years I have tried many things to balance myself out and help myself function to my full potential. I approach health from what I call the four bodies. This includes the mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual. I am sure there are other aspects but for the sake of simplifying and presenting my theories in an accessible and digestible way we will keep it narrowed down to those four.

Video One: Mental Health

This first video has to do with the mental aspect of mental health. Most of us tend to locate our mental health at the head where our brains and the mind are located. The brain is just a physical organ that houses our thoughts and our imagination. Since we are physical beings in a physical body it is important to understand that the brain needs to be cared for in order for it to function properly. One also needs to remember though that the brain is connected to the whole of the body- physically and the electromagnetically which I will discuss in later videos.

I hope you enjoy this video and that it provides you some clarity for your own healing. As I learn more about this system I am developing (and testing on myself) it will evolve and one day I would like to present it to you all as a holistic therapy that will help transform and enrich your lives. So stay tuned for the other three videos in this four part series as I will be releasing one each week over the course of a month. As always thank you for your support, we are on this journey together!

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Pan Burcier-HidalgoPan Bourcier Hidalgo is a Dancer who is originally from Albuquerque, New Mexico. Her blog series, Pan’s Labyrinth, discusses Self-Discovery and Personal Evolution.

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Pan's Labyrinth: Valentine's Day

Pan’s Labyrinth: Valentine’s Day

Valentine’s Day by Pan Bourcier Hidalgo

​It is highly appropriate on Valentine’s Day to want to feel loved and accepted. At the core of our beings I believe that we all want to love and be loved. Well I am going to tell you about Pan's Labyrinth: Valentine's Daysomething that I learned recently about love. I always thought that loving another person would open up their heart when actually loving another person opened up my heart.

​I cannot tell you how much of a relief it was to realize this. (I can’t take all the credit though, Matt Kahn’s teachings give me a lot of guidance) It has been so liberating because of course you want someone to love you back but realizing that you are going to feel love whether or not that person decides to mirror it back is a wonderful feeling. We are only ever giving love that we have generated within ourselves. When someone does not mirror our own love back to us it is only their inability to open their heart. I am not going to say I am the expert on unconditional love or that I feel that way all the time. However, I can tell you that my heart feels excited to be liberated in loving whomever it wants to and not having to worry about any kind of reciprocation.

Pan's Labyrinth: Valentine's Day​It feels so good to offer love to people and give it away like candy. It is the most healing thing in the world to have someone love you without asking for anything in return. It has taken me a long time to realize that my big heart can just give away love whenever and to whoever it wants. Loving others no matter their response is a form of loving yourself. Sure it feels great to just focus all your love inward but focusing it out is the same thing. To truly not expect anything in return is a magical place to be and I may not be there all the way yet but somehow I don’t think it’s going to take very long for my mind to catch up to my heart.

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Pan Burcier-HidalgoPan Bourcier Hidalgo is a Dancer who is originally from Albuquerque, New Mexico. Her blog series, Pan’s Labyrinth, discusses Self-Discovery and Personal Evolution.

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Pan's Labyrinth: Circulating Energy

Pan’s Labyrinth: Circulating Energy

Circulating Energy by Pan Bourcier Hidalgo

There is a certain amount of adversity that sparks creativity in the human mind..if you let it. I cannot tell you how many times I tried something only to have it fail. I have had to go back to the drawing board so many times that it has turned into a time where I can be the most Pan's Labyrinthcreative. I decided eventually that it was not that I was trying and failing, but rather getting an outcome from an experiment that I no longer needed to conduct. I learned that the reason why I would switch jobs, homes, and social circles so often was because I needed to circulate energy in my life.

This is one of the most impactful practices I have learned because it empowers you to bring new opportunities into your life by making small changes. You target an area that you want to change and start slowly making adjustments. For example if you want to become healthier you can do something as simple as taking the stairs instead of taking the elevator. Or you can drink one or two more glasses of water a day.

Conscious Flow

What this does is take something that has become stagnant and pushes it to move again. Now there is flow in that area and the new energy brings opportunities for you to further change your life. It is a really gentle approach for us to continually change our lives and keep things circulating. When we don’t consciously create flow in our lives on a daily basis life will do it for us. This is when chaos and conflict is created. So why not work with life and continue to change, evolve, and grow on purpose?

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Pan Burcier-HidalgoPan Bourcier Hidalgo is a Dancer who is originally from Albuquerque, New Mexico. Her blog series, Pan’s Labyrinth, discusses Self-Discovery and Personal Evolution.

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Pan's Labyrinth

Pan’s Labyrinth: Endurance

Endurance by Pan Bourcier Hidalgo

No matter how much you sleep, eat, listen to music, or cry, none of it will be able to take away the pain that we all experience from life. I have tried all of these things and much worse in the past. Eventually though I come back to myself and have to acknowledge the unbearable aching Pan's Labyrinth: Enduranceand agonizing growing pains of life. Thankfully there is a purpose for our pain. Pain empties you out, pain deepens your soul, and pain lets you know that you are passionate about something.

One of the things I can count on is my endurance. Endurance is built through facing life challenges and being able to get through it. Not only do we get through them but we also turn them into our strengths. I have done this enough to know the process. It doesn’t make the pain any less bearable but at least I know what comes next. I hope that I will soon shatter so deeply that it will purge any fear I have of pain.

PossibilitiesWhen you are not afraid of something shattering you, when you are not afraid of feeling the full spectrum of human emotion it puts you in a position to do anything. You are capable of anything at this point because what is going to stop you? I want to go talk to that person I am attracted to. What is the worst that could happen? They reject you? If you are not afraid of this feeling then it’s not a big deal. This is the key to being able to do anything. We are not going to magically stop feeling, but when our fear of feeling dissipates, an infinite amount of possibilities open up in our world. I welcome all that shatters me, this is where true freedom lies.
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Pan Burcier-HidalgoPan Bourcier Hidalgo is a Dancer who is originally from Albuquerque, New Mexico. Her blog series, Pan’s Labyrinth, discusses Self-Discovery and Personal Evolution.

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Pan's Labyrinth: Change & Transcendence

Pan’s Labyrinth: Change & Transcendence

Change & Transcendence by Pan Bourcier Hidalgo


When people hunger for change they romanticize chaos. It is fulfilling to theorize how this chaos will ensue. Many filmmakers over the years have successfully depicted a chaotic earth dystopiaIt has become apparent over the years how important and necessary chaos is and how it is part of the cycle of change. I have many times felt like the bringer of chaos, having acted so many times as the catalyst. Most of the time when the chaos period has passed, I have been able to witness the situation (or person) reform in a stronger way because of the chaos that was endured. Many of us, if not all of us, crave change at the beginning of a new year.

The mistake that we make is that we expect a dramatic astrological reading, Mayan prophecy, or Pan's Labyrinth: Change & Transendencethe flying spaghetti monster to bring about the change we want to see in our lives. There is so much that we can do when we take back our power and even more that we can do with others who have the same goals and passions as ourselves. We do not need to rely on outside forces to create the change we want to see or even wait in general for change to happen. There is so much power in daily practice. There is a very sad perception that many of us have, that we will be able to do something about our discontent tomorrow. What we tend to forget is that tomorrow doesn’t exist.

Transcendence

I have had so many people tell me over the years how I should do things and at the end of the day I figured out that I had to do what felt right to me; even if this did not make sense to anyone but me. Never let anyone place their limitations on you, always question everything, and approach everything as if you will master it AND transcend it. If you do these things not only will you master all that you do, you will also discover that there is something even better afterwards. The universe is infinite, what do you choose to master?

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Pan Burcier-HidalgoPan Bourcier Hidalgo is a Dancer who is originally from Albuquerque, New Mexico. Her blog series, Pan’s Labyrinth, discusses Self-Discovery and Personal Evolution.

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Pan's Labyrinth: Love Yourself

Pan’s Labyrinth: Love Yourself


There are many things in life that start with a feeling. That feeling grows and becomes a thought, a concept and eventually a plan. We have preconceived notions of how we think our life is going to flow. I had all of these grand ideas of how my time in New Orleans Pan's Labyrinth: Love Yourselfwould be spent. I dreamed of living in a specific house and have comradery with my artsy, musician roommates. I dreamed I would go to flight school and become a commercial pilot. I even had a great idea of renting out space to traveling musicians and calling it ‘The Bryd House’. They were great ideas attached to great emotions of freedom and newness. Eventually I got to New Orleans and I found out what it really had in store for me.

New Orleans held the key to opening parts of myself that were buried so deep and had been so viciously protected that I would not have been able to find them had I not decided to be starkly alone. I had to completely empty myself to really know what it felt like to be Pan. I uncovered a whole other side of myself and by un-blanketing her I realized I was capable of all of the things I had struggled with for so long. I pushed myself to the edge and at times I thought I would fall over; I knew I wouldn’t but it felt like I was hanging by a very thin and frayed thread. Often I
would fantasize about destroying everything in my way because I felt so caged up and full of rage. I found out that by being gentle with myself I would blossom and be able to function at full capacity. It is when we are not loving, understanding, and patient with ourselves that we become the most stressed and vicious.

Pan's Labyrinth: Love YourselfEveryone needs space to be a person, everyone needs outlets that create momentum in their life, everyone needs down time to recharge their battery, and everyone needs kindness and love. What I found in New Orleans was how to give those things to myself. When I was able to step outside of myself and view myself as another person I found that I wanted to love myself as deeply as possible because that is when I am the happiest. We don’t realize sometimes the micro aggressions we commit towards ourselves. Sometimes this can be going out with friends when really we want to go home, drink tea, and watch a movie. Sometimes it appears as not feeding ourselves properly throughout the day because we are “too busy” to do so. Are you really too busy to value yourself enough to give your own body sustenance and energy that it needs to stay alive? I sure hope not. We want to go so fast that we forget to really be with ourselves and enjoy who we are. You are going to be your own companion for your…entirelife. Stop to enjoy that reality every once in a while and you will find that you go through your days a lot happier as a result.
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Pan Burcier-HidalgoPan Bourcier Hidalgo is a Dancer who is originally from Albuquerque, New Mexico. She has relocated and embarked on a journey of discovery in New Orleans, Louisiana. Join her as she learns about her new city and herself in Pan’s Labyrinth!

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Pan’s Labyrinth: Running To A Stand Still

Running to a Stand Still by Pan Bourcier Hidalgo

Have you ever been so discouraged, so tired and so far to the end of your rope that you just volumewanted to throw yourself on the floor and not get up? I have many, many, times quite literally
thrown myself on the floor and not wanted to get up, but eventually I did. I dragged my feet at first but gained my strength back and was able to push
through. However, there were definitely those times where I did give up and even ran away. I have done my fair share of avoiding in my lifetime. I still indulge in ignoring and avoiding from time to time when the volume gets to loud on life. I would very much like to turn the volume down, but life goes pulsing on with or without you.

There were the times though that I pushed through and I conquered and these were the times that I expanded and felt completely empowered. I am grateful for the times that I have been relentless in life, because when I truly want something I never give up on it. One of the things that I have truly wanted was to be patient, but patience comes at a very high price for me. Patience comes with practice and I didn’t know what this meant until I slowed down long enough to see what I was really running from. I was running away from all of the
Running to a Stand Still
things that I thought made me feel weak or unlovable. Most of us have the goblin in the closet that feeds us lies under the door. He tells us that there is some “imperfection” that we have that is going to ruin us if anyone finds out. Make us unlovable and ugly in the eyes of others. As long as we don’t think we are ugly, that is the important thing.

If the greatest successes in life were easy to reach then everyone would be on top of the world. It takes strength, perseverance, and determination to climb the peaks that hold the deepest treasures of life. At the top of the mountain there is a wise old sage and he is holding a mirror and eventually we see that we were there all along. To be with one’s self through this entire journey of life is ineffable. So after running for a long time, I find that I would rather sit and see what happens when I finally catch up to myself. I will be waiting for me at the top of the mountain having tea with the wise old sage.

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Pan Burcier-HidalgoPan Bourcier Hidalgo is a Dancer who is originally from Albuquerque, New Mexico. She has relocated and embarked on a journey of discovery in New Orleans, Louisiana. Join her as she learns about her new city and herself in Pan’s Labyrinth!

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