What Do I Do?!?: How I started making good decisions for myself by Chessa Peak

Part 1 of a 3 part series

I was the queen of bad decisions until a life changing surgery five years ago. My life was a turbulent and traumatic mess. I had spent my entire adult life in physical pain, at times white out pain. Between the amount of estrogen and physical pain I was in and no pain management other than what I prescribed myself, it’s a wonder I’m not an addict, in prison or dead. For the
last 5 years I have been decompressing from the severity of my life and overhauling myself. It took a long time to see how I was perpetuating the bad decisions in my life but through the strength of my convictions I am seeing more results than anyone I have ever known.

Feeling lost is something I’m very familiar with and I see so many struggling to find a way out of their emotional/mental hell. I am a walking testament to change and if you know me, you will attest to my story. If I can change, so can you. If I found a way out, so can you… but you have to truly want it and be willing to do the work necessary to achieve it.

I reached a severe low point in my personal pit of hell. Circumstance as well as my bad decisions made me suicidal but I knew I wanted to live. Even at this internally destructive low I knew I loved so many things about life. Even though I had begun to make the right decisions, I still felt this crippling sorrow for everything I had been through and my many failed attempts to make a good life for myself and those around me.

There was something missing. I was taking the steps. Rebuilding my life financially, enrolled in college and making good grades, cut out toxic characters though I was still dabbling in a toxic relationship which I soon ended as well. I was decompressing from the circumstances that had put me under, but the emotional wounds were still as fresh as ever. The word “decompress” kept hitting me.   
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Chessa Peak has been in New Mexico since the age of 4 and is an honorary New Mexican. A bartender of over 10 years in the Duke City, musician, entrepreneur, and current student at CNM, Chessa is now currently working towards her own non-profit group that will support literacy, art and music programs for Albuquerque residents and her immediate community. Having come through a negative past, her writings deeply reflect the nature of her personal struggles in an attempt to help others overcome their personal battles.

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